I can relate. Well I have been in bed basically for 3 months and on a good day can do a few errands from the pain. I had severe depression/anorexia in the past so am not new to depression. I have been on anti depression meds in the past and were trying new ones for the nerve pain which have all given me bad side effects too. I guess for me I focus on the people I love and try to hold to hope things can get better. I feel as I'm loosing my mind from the pain and fear but reminding myself at this point I'm doing all I can do. Sorry not much help but I guess just saying too your not alone.