It was kind of a double whammy because I saw 2 PT's one after the other, the first for balance and to try to stretch the leg and the second for desensitizing some large nerves that have long been damage and are irritable from living in scars. I'll find the strength to push through, my goal is to run again eventually.

My main problem is that I dealt with it by ignoring it forever and now that I'm trying to take stock and deal with it I can't wrap my mind around the challenge. Although I've found large degrees of success in the past by ignoring it, much to my surprise it still effected most paths I've chosen.
I'm worried that even with my full attention and the best efforts of dr's and pt's and an unending pool of strength to push me forward I can't save the ankle and the foot / knee are going with it. Just because I foresee failure, however, will never prevent me from giving it a go. The PT that worked on desensitizing calls crps "crips" and said that's what it is in her opinion along with reynauds. I find it funny every time she says crips even though it's a nightmare.