Hello me ducks, well tomorrow's the day when I see my Pain Specialist who is also an Aneathatist (however you spell it). Apparently he wanted to see me because he is leaving the Pain Clinic to concentrate on other things.

The appointment with the surgeon is the 28th of this month ... so not long to wait either.

I feel really sick with nerves ... they were going to look into that thing where they drill a hole in your head and get to the part of the brain that works the sciatic nerve I suppose ... I did ask the surgeon at the time, when he was telling me why he couldn't possibly get anything into my back because of all the scarring .. and he did say, "that is a possibility".

I'm trying to keep those tummy bubbles at bay .. but doesn't stress like this, on top of pain, make you tired?

I am so, so tired all the time. I could stay in bed all day dozing on and off and have to force myself to get up .. then invariably am so tired, go back to bed.

It's nights I find hard, as it's the only time I see Mike really and he's back from work at 7 and I'm in bed at 8.30.

Ah well .. I will let you know how I get on tomorrow one way or another ...

If they say they can't do anything, I'm booking a bloody holiday!