Thanks for all the kind words and I'm sorry you are all also going through similar things. I really do need to remember that my job is not the most important thing in my life and it does not define who I am as a person.
I will be grateful for the fact that, if needed, I have two more years to return to my job before I can actually lose it totally. Or until Long Term deems me no longer disabled and cuts me off
And maybe it will be a good thing to go back to learning something totally new. There will be nothing to compare to how I used to do it.
Thanks again and I hope you all are having a good day.
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