I so want
To leave you alone
I so want
To not call you
On the phone
I so want
To not bother you
Anymore
I so want
Your forgiveness
I so want
My absolute silence
I so want
For this all to be over
I so want
To go back in time
When everything was fine
I so want
To know definitely
What to believe
I so want
For you to read this
I so want
For you to tell me
You did so
I so want
For everything
To be normal
I so want
To not have this illness
I so want
For you to know
That, I sob about the fact
That my delusions
Won't let go
I so want
For you to believe
That I am so sorry
I so want
For God, to take this
Affliction from me
I so want
To be happy
I so want
For you to tell me
That you understand
And, that it's okay
That, I won't always
Be this way...

(written- 5/6/07-For, Tim)