I so screwed up and i dont know what to do! Alot has been going on and ive just been busy. I had cancled my appt in december because i cant even remember honestly, but then I got an appt for Feb. and I was so thankful my appt was coming up because the pain has just been awful, to the point that when my pain gets to a certain level it sets off my seizures and so im having seizures. And because I got busy I missed my appt that I had for Feb. I didnt relise it was the 1 day. I thought it was the next week. And now I have to wait another 3 months to see him. It was already such a long wait and now I have to wait longer. Ive been exhausted and busy and I cannot believe i missed my appt. I even got my fent patch upped to 50mcg a few days ago and i was very suprised to feel that it gave me just very little relief. So my pain is still bad and its not like i can get my meds increased again. I keep saying that I can do this. Ive done it for 6yrs now, so i can keep doing it. But when i cant go bowling with my best friend, and havent now for over 6yrs, that hurts. Im young and i cant even do any thing fun. Sure we can keep playing board games and monoply over and over, but sometimes its just not fair. Just another 3 months.