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Join Date: Dec 2012
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Join Date: Dec 2012
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Posts: 685
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Sorry you feel this way....the acceptance is the one of the hardest parts of this life changing syndrome.
I am also getting treated for PTSD,PCS,Depression,Panic...It is a lot to digest and the faster you can accept the faster you can move on to coping....I was also very mad/angry at the person that hit me...but I had to learn to use that negative energy to something positive.We cannot do nothing to change this except ourselves...
I know it sucks and don't look back or forward, just live the moment and try to reverse the negatives to something positive and give thanks that you still have life and a second chance. 
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Originally Posted by MissingMe
Dear friends,
Feel very removed from myself. I'm in limbo and feel lost, useless, and frustrated. Today is my worst day like this. My head feels like it has jolts. Thursday is 3 months and I know that is still early. I am such a work horse as a teacher and family member. I always take care of others. The more I do the more energy it gives me to help more.
That came to a screeching halt. I am still trying to accept that I have a brain injury and I'm not the woman I was. I think I'm in part denial and scared to accept this all. I used to work at a non-stop fierce pace and love it. Now I am definitely home until August this school year. I'm not the wife, mother, or daughter I was. I've worked so hard throughout my life to be the best person I could be and to always choose happy.
The world is different now for me to experience. It's loud, busy and my brain can't handle it. Home is calm, but as many of you know it's isolating. The man that did this to me will never get it, and he still gets to live his life. I have seen a psychiatrist, and am preparing to see someone to talk to on a regular basis this week. I do have ptsd from the accident and depression. I just want to be me again.
Thank you to all of you. I am coping day by day and connect with you and your stories throughout the day to feel like someone gets it and to feel connected.
Thanks,
MissingMe
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What Happened: In 2011 I was in a MVA
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Symptoms: Physical: I am always cold in any season!!I cannot tolerate anything pressure on my head(sun glasses,hats)longer then a hour,Lock jaw/Displaced TMJ, Dropsey, Hands go numb, Arms go numb, back of head numb (when asleep),Muscle spasms in face & upper body,migraines, concentration headaches, dizziness, nausea, neck and back trauma (from accident), tinnitus, extreme light sensitivity, noise sensitivity, EXTREME fatigue, impaired vestibular system, balance off, Pupils NEVER equal, disrupted sleep cycles,speech problems.
Cognitive: Cognitive Behavior, Brain fog, impulsivity, speech problems, word finding problems, slowed processing speeds, impaired visual memory, impaired complex attention
Emotional: Unable to handle stress or overstimulation without getting extremely irritable or angry, easily overstimulated, MAJOR depression, major anxiety, Panic attacks
Treatment so far: Treatment for PCS,PTSD,Depression & panic,Vestibular therapy, Physical therapy, Vitamin Schedule,Walking,No Dairy, No eggs, No caffeine, No artificial coloring, Sleep with 2 pillows, Very little sugars consumed, Eat healthy,No alcohol, Medications, limit stress and overstimulation.
~*~Learn to treasure yourself and your Divinity. Be willing to accept yourself completely. Be yourself, be graceful, be kind, be wild, be weird ... be true to yourself~*~
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