Welcome. You are not alone. I have found the one thing that has helped me the most is meditation. You probably have sleeping problems and racing thoughts, this can help with that a lot. Also helps with anxiety. Even if you just concentrate on breathing or on a mantra (a phrase you say over and over to yourself that is positive).

I am having a neuropsychiatric evaluation on the 25th. I will let you all know what new coping skills or rehabilitation ideas they have.

I am so sorry you are going through this. Listen to mark in Idaho, he has much experience and great advise and is very good at remaining positive and calm in this freaking horrific new territory. Good luck to you. Try to take some time off and heal. It is crucial you do this.