Thanks for all your thoughtful, caring responses to my questions. I do have a very good doctor who is a pain specialist. I have been seeing him since 2009 every month or two. I have always trusted him and up until recently he has been spot on with his treatment. He does not over medicate me, which is something I like about him. I had a really bad seizure this month and have just been so hurt since then. He did seem concerned with my pain level after the seizure. I have had to end up taking more than my allowed two a day a few times and ended up in the e.r once since this seizure. I am going to have to tell him (he will definately know anyway seeing as he knows exactly how much medication I should have) that I have had to take an extra pill three times this month since the seizure. I have had a constant headache with nausea and vision loss that I cannot shake. Plus I feel like my brain has blown its last fuse. I am having so much anxiety and depression. I never cry, I am tough, have always considered myself a badass, but I tell you guys I have been crying daily. I don't know why. I am so sensitive. Maybe he will be a little more willing to bend when he sees me next time. I am sure I will break down bawling.