Dear Bizi,

It is o.k. to whine and have so many things to be grateful for.

Than keyboard and stand invading my arts and crafts space would be annoying. I would want it out of the house. I understand.

Perhaps you have to give yourself a break for all the stress you have gone through since he got hurt. When he was sick, you were supportive, but, now that he needs you less, you are feeling comfortable about speaking about your needs. That is healthy.

I think you should be honest with your health care professionals. They need to know what is going on. Find another doctor who can better help you with what you need to do.

Please cut yourself some slack. This is an easy solution. Hire somone to come over to clean it. Or trade services with someone. Do something for them that they need and have them clean.

Hubby is a pack rat. I have been getting rid of things because I need to feel free. I am am very careful about what I bring into the house. Even if I buy an item of clothing, I throw away another item so that I can have space.
My point is that I have to constantly put my foot down about his stuff. We made clear rules for the household. He tries to step over the boundaries but I remind him. ---- Otherwise we could be on an episode of Hoarders / Clean This House.

Let your husband know that you need his help to work through some of this. Maybe schedule a time for the two of you to talk this weekend. He can help you with these feelings. Bring him in.

Reach out to everyone --- friends, Husband, your mental health care professionals, your regular MDs, family, . . .
You are not alone. You have people.

M