Do you have a representative that can help you with your claim? Try not to be panic over the SS appointment OK? Don't loose hope. Most folks who apply for SS disability do so with council or a representative, it makes the process go much better. Keep all your records together, and have copies of them. Personal letters from your physicians can also be of help when applying again. Not just the form letters filled in. I hope you get the help you need. Don't think suicide, think SS will work, and go for it. You have friends here to support you all the way through it. Take a deep breath, this process takes time, and doesn't happen right away. I also went through the process. Can you stay with family or friends? Can anyone in your family help a bit financially? The no money situation is the most difficult part , I know it, as I lived it too. It can be stressful, so you need the support. I will be thinking of you. ginnie