Sally.....All I can do is empathize with you and send cyber hugs.
Right there with you on the "sick of living like this". Too much pain, too much isolation, not caring about much, not seeing family/grands, worrying about paying bills, keeping up with "house" stuff and for what purpose, complaining, etc., etc., etc.

Thank goodness we can come here to "socialize" with others who understand. My prayers are especially with you today, Sally.