((((((Justice)))))),

I remember you from when you posted earlier

I'm sorry you're still having trouble in your life. I don't know anything about COPD. So, I can't help in that way.

I wish you weren't having such a hard time. You know, Justice, I believe that The Universe guides our steps. I can see that you were supposed to go to Utah to help your Dad. Maybe now, though, it's time to go back home??

Do you have friends or family to support you back home??

You have COPD and you can't get a referral to a pulmonologist

Any one of us who: has got a diagnosis that's long-term, suffers from chronic pain, is female understands what it's like to be discounted and be told that "it's all in your head". Man if we each had a nickel for every time that phrase has ever been used, we'd all be millionaires.

Justice, it's time for you to start kickin some @$$.

Anyone with a pulmonary problem should have a specialist in the field -- complain to the insurance company or to the state medical board that you're getting inappropriate treatment.

Make a decision about the residence. It's obvious (to me anyway) that you don't like Utah and don't want to be there. Not that there's anything wrong with it. It just doesn't *FIT* you. Do something about it.

I know what's it like to be given a diagnosis that may or may not affect your mortality. It's beyond hard -- there isn't even a word for how hard it is to face it.

But, you have to face it.

And you have to take back control of your life and live the life you are supposed to live.

I'm sorry everything is so hard for you. It'll be easier once you take the back the reins.

Hugs.

Barb