I know exactly how you're feeling. My spine started deteriorating at 38 and I was able to work another 6 or 7 years before it just became impossible to do anymore. Standing and sitting was just impossible, and that's what I did all day since I was an optician. I just HATED having to give it up. And not only that, but I was getting divorced too -- so everything seemed to fall apart at the same time. lol I'd been married for 26 years, but it was just time to get OUT. He was controlling and emotionally abusive to the point that I'd even been in a mental hospital! So I'd had enough.

Trouble is, not working kind of put a real strain on things, to say the least. But I made it thru that. And I totally understand your exhausting all your savings. Been there, done that. lol

My gosh, you were in Mortuary Science? Good for you! It's awful you had to give that up. I'm so sorry. And golf too? You're breaking my heart!!! I used to shoot trap (kind of like skeet shooting) but standing there on your posts, plus the recoil of the gun isn't very good for me anymore, cause for one thing I've lost weight since I used to shoot. I don't have enough padding anymore. I miss it. I had a great time shooting, but the men hated getting beat by a woman cause I was good at it. LOL See, I used to be a cop years ago. I was the first woman cop in our city. Probably just their "token" woman cause of "Equal opportunity" employment pushes at the time. LOL

Anyway - I don't know how I got off on this. I sure did digress, didn't I
I'm just so sorry you lost so much by this accident. It's not fair.

Again, God bless. Take care of yourself, huh? And keep me posted. Hugs, Lee