dear God
dear friends

thank you for this day

after i cleaned up after Sir Oliver
he is set up in my room
gate up
a emergency purchase
it was needed with Eva
blessed i feel blessed
looking in my dogs eyes
was beautiful
so his skin was dry
i lathered him up with
j&j baby lotion
the old school pink bottle
and gave him a massage
washed his beautiful face
blessed am i
i missed him so much
i went out and got eva
as she is in la la land
asked for him first thing
when she got up
brought her in my room
and oh my goodness
" preciousness " oozing
out of eva
sitting on my lap
the baby now nearing toddler
was beside herself
so thankful i brought her in
oliver was very good
he is a pure breed Australian
Silky Terrier
after a bit Chrissy
and myself the dog
and it was great
he is best one on one
with the baby
blessed
did not come without lip
from management
shut them up quickly
knowing i could have a dog
solely on my depressive state
not a word
then i said i rather not go there
and my daughter could not afford
the doggy facilities
and i haven't had a chance to really
visit
the last couple of times never
something always came up and
i couldn't see him
so i did the right thing
took in my family and am having
a great time
didn't get lip from
management

i should be hearing from Ms. Lynch
Corissa's guidance councilor

her father must be developing a conciseness
after the messages i was forced to leave
asking him to please save them
she doesn't go in and read what my feelings are
we talk about it
she has just been told some things
she did not need to know
but it was the truth
and the messages left was always with
Corissa and Christine to hear what
needed to be said
since these past two weeks
he refuses to speak with me
so he seems to think Corissa is old
enough to make her on decisions
and i agree to a point
as a parent we do things very differently
so being the mom a mom that gives a darn
as my older one can tell her how it was with them
blessed i am she is the only good thing he could
have given it is what it is I wanted her AMEN AMEN AMEN

my physical being is what it is also
the scary thing is my back
doctor Peterson asked if i wanted to do the
lower back, also i told him one thing at a time
neck was priority
that was over 3 years ago
trying and praying that i can forgive

blessed this apartment
at a time i couldn't work
any more
this apartment market
rate is close to 2,500.00
and a HUD building
Housing Urban Development
federal funded
and into the hands of
some crooks
yet i am blessed
standing in the truth
it has NEVER LET ME DOWN

to my friends following my meds
back to what i have been on
oxycontin, zenflex and perc
xanx ans lexpro, latter two from my
shrink he does not want me to take
the new drug my pain specialist
wants me to try NORTRIPTYLINE HCL 25 MG

to that very special someone who is an inspiration
to everyone you touch your diversities you have met
unbeknownst as the cards dealt many with the same
hand and at that point we decide how to play it or decide
to cop out i am blessed to know many you especially along
with another beautiful friend who is as wise as you left with
permanent change as we all suffer is another who inspires
know you have made a difference in me and the world
my thanks


dear Lord watch over my babies

someone who cares
forever