I know this is way to hard to believe sometimes heck it seems impossible to really believe... but I have been threw much... and I know one thing to be true and that is this...
God dose not punish you .. other peole punish you and you punish yourself.
God loves you and I pray you find a huge slice of peacefull easy feeling.
finding a bit of that makes the crap in life easier to deal with.
Many bushel loads of blessings for you c-girl.
play some music and take a vac in your mind in sunny skies and soft beach sand with gulls passing by and water soaking your feets.
Peace Peace
BMW