Hi. I'm sorry for what your going through but thank you for checking in. You know I thought of you last night. I had a really bad day and was in the worst pain of my life I thought I was dying. Anyhow I felt almost like I couldn't go on but then I remembered what I told you and I have to hold onto hope. See your not alone and sometimes though I hate to see others struggle it does help to see people do make it through.I have bad insurance so I understand as I pay for all meds,doc visits,and have huge co pays. Have you looked into a loan or possibly family members for help? I'm sure you looked into that. I'm not sure your age and like I said my insurance is crap but at least I have it and covers most of the tests after the deductible. Its more affordable insurance since its private pay for people under 35. Anyhow keep checking in and hold to hope.