[Hi Matt,

Thanks for the explanation. I understand science is being your reality-- but I dont think your not really focused on what science is also saying--your seeing it fragmanted.

Science shows what really matters when we age its not the size of your brain or how many neurons are left, its more how its wired. Its also more importantly shows what a person can do to perserve and rejuvenate the wiring with known depression.

When you learn a new thing it will enhance the number and the wiring of the neuronal networks. This will incease your brain power.

Science show the brain reatains a high degree of placticity--in learning new intresting things this will develop a higher number of nerve cell connections.

Science show brain cells continue to multiply in the hippocampus. By reducing stress hormones (cortisol),exercise brain and body and complying to anti dep meds.

Matt like Ginnie spoke of a friend--- I also have a friend from college who in his 20's in college had the same thought as you --of neurons dying in his brain-- because he was extremly smart-- and in his Senior year his obsession with the thought caused his depression to become extreme --he almost dropped out. He had a hard time trying focus on his senior thesis --because he 100% believed -- the depression was killing the neurons in his brain. It took alot of support from friends and family and a very good pdoc -- to get him thru his Senior yr of college. Talk about irony --guess what --he became neurologist!! -- He is nows married with two kids. Im not sure how old your are--- but it started to effect him in his early 20's-- he is in his 50's now --and a big success. Even when we speak about it now-- he still has clairty of how that thought consumed him completely for 10yrs. Now --because of treatment he see's the reality that it doesn't have to destroy your life or brain. If you do the work turn it around with all the things science suggest to do to keep your brain healthy!!!