Pray for you regardless whether you refer to yourself as an old....... b'cause you are among those for whom I care.
I hope your needs may be met without having to go the route which might disrupt that which seems to provide you the motion and means to be there for others via nursing. You are a blessing to all whom you touch under your care, AND I am so glad to know you have the monster in your care and presence, for it is precisely where she needs to find nurturing care and comfort as she matures.
You, my friend, have my undying respect in taking pain while pushing on,
Hugs and prayers surrounding you,
Yup,