I read your story and just wanted to say not to be hard on yourself. As a mother of 3 there isn't anything in this world that I would not have done to ensure that my kids had the best chance. that would include my own life. I respect all that you have been thru and done to help your kids. the greatest gift we can give our kids is the best we can do for them. your kids sound great and you know that they must admire and love you more than words can say. Hold your head up high, you have nothing to be ashamed of
mary