Sending you a big hug. Feeling down over what we use to do, happens with any severe, limiting illness or condition. I jumped from planes, went horseback riding alot. I do get depressed over the things I use to do. Try to keep that good smile on your face. No matter what it is better, than being horribly sad all the time. Push on, and find some things that make you happy even when you are pain. Keep coming back here for support. I also hope your doctors have given you enough help so that you can have some good quality of life. Speak up to your physician if you are not getting enough relief. I am in your corner. ginnie