I really do think, that you explain yourself fine. Your medical records will speak for you. It is just finding the right rep. to get your records to. They work with people that cannot represent themselves for the same reason as you. Trust in someone, I know the help is outthere! Wish I were in your neck of the woods, I would help you. Google SS representatives in your county, should bring up people you can just call for initial appt. Some you can talk to by phone first. Even if you can't do it all, they are there to take the burden from you. The rep. I had, truely was God sent Brain, and he did do right by me even when I was really upset and crying. These kinds of reps. do exist, phone call away. Just go for it. I will be praying for you. I f you give me the county you are in, I can do some research for you. I would be glad to help. Calling doesn't cost, I would be willing to try. ginnie