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Join Date: May 2007
Location: Spokane Valley, Wa
Posts: 473
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Join Date: May 2007
Location: Spokane Valley, Wa
Posts: 473
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Thanks everyone
I really appreciate all the kind and encouraging comments, they mean a lot.
I sure hope my intro didn't come across as whiny, or full of self-pity. I am proud of what I've done, for the most part. Yeah, selling drugs wasn't the best thing I could have done... but I also could have done much worse, lol. I never hurt an innocent person, nor did I ever sell to anyone under the age of 18. As a Mom of two teenage boys, I had my standards!
I rarely feel very sorry for myself. I used to, on occasion, I admit that. I still have moments here and there, too. But one day, while playing a game in my league, one of the women told me "Wow... you must be an extraordinarily strong person, or God wouldn't put so much on your shoulders." As simple of a statement as that was, it changed my life. I did sit back and think, and decided it was true, lol. I would much rather this were happening to me, than to anyone else. I don't know too many people who could handle it.
I also do what I can to still feel useful to this world. That's a huge part of the depression patients feel, we constantly ask ourselves "what am I here for?!? What good am I?" Well, even the most broken, housebound one of us still has plenty to offer!
My little contribution is to warm the homeless. I crochet afghans, and use a Knifty Knitter to make warm hats, that I then give to a charity that has direct dealings, on street level, with the homeless. I used to give them out myself, but I have to be cautious about getting any illnesses.
There is nothing more satisfying than seeing a hat you made on the head of someone who has very little else to call their own. Or seeing an afghan you made wrapped around the shoulders of a person out in the cold. You realize that God has uses for you, even if most folks can't see them.
Which is why the thought of my arms becoming involved with the rsd terrifies me so much. I'm sure, when or if I reach that stage, God will let me know what I am to do next... but in the meantime, I am a bit uncertain.
Again, I thank you all for your kind words. I hope to be an active, helpful member of these forums, not just someone who takes comfort without returning it
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