Yeah, yesterday was just a bad day. My depression started as pain induced over 10 years ago, so when I'm in more pain, it just gets worse. I went home, my husband and I discussed my depression, had a drink (which is rare) and cuddled with my daughter watching TV after dinner. Hopefully I can get outside this weekend between the rain and do some gardening, which obviously I have to do a little at a time. I have tomorrow off work for good friday, but we don't celebrate Easter so it's a nice long weekend for me. Getting outside I think will help the best. We have my bro-in-law at the house right now, so I'll probably play tourist and drive him around a bit, get some photos done.

The pain thing is one of the bad things about all of this (duh). I currently use pot to help with the pain (which the docs agree with, I have a medical prescrip) but I can't use it at work. I don't want to take opiates while working either. I'm going to ask the doc for the topical ointment to help with the pain. I have a really hard time with a lot of pain pills. I don't know what else to do about the pain, be all loopy and/or be addicted, or be in pain. I don't want to be either, which is why I haven't taken pain pills yet. The pot actually works great when I can use it. I tried Tramadol many years ago and had a horrible reaction to it. Got addicted to Percocet when I was in the hospital and I wasn't even taking that much for very long. Vicodin and Advil hurts my stomach.