I had foot surgery in February 2012 to put in metal implants after a snowboarding accident. I had another surgery in December to remove some of the pins. Ever since the last surgery, my pain has gotten significantly worse. Constant burning, aching, and muscle cramps make me feel exhausted. I had painkillers left over from surgeries that I was taking 4x a week. Now I'm running out and the pain is getting worse.

I've been to 2 doctors to ask for help managing the pain and anxiety it's causing. They all said no to opioids or benzos because they were addictive. I finally got diagnosed with CRPS last week, and have topical cream to start. I hope it works soon, but I really don't know how I'll manage the next week or so without some kind of pain killer. I'm not a junkie trying to get high. All I want is 1 pain free hour, and I shouldn't be treated like an addict just because I can't take the pain.

The nights are worse. I have nightly panic attacks and shake now because I'm scared of the pain coming back. I'm in Washington state, with the strictest pain med laws in the country. Every time I ask for help I get looks of pity but no relief. Being in my 20s also brings me under suspicion even though I'm in serious pain. Does anyone know where I can go for help? I don't even know where to start right now.