I don't think it's odd at all. I know what you mean about the brief relief making you worry more about the return. I'm really sorry you're feeling so bad. I'm sure the worry doesn't help the migraines and pain either, I have been worried about my husband this week (he is grieving the loss of his brother) and my pain and headaches have been worse for it. Are you getting any support at all? Over here we have phone lines you can call for emotional support (eg. The Samaritans). I don't mean that to be patronising at all, I just worry when I read your post as you sound like I felt over Christmas. People here will know more about what support is available in your area if you don't already know yourself that is. I'm new and don't know many "regulars" here yet, so please forgive me if you're already aware of any help available.