Donna, God isnt mad with you, but Im. Im kidding of course, but he would never be mad with you !!!!
It took me several health problems and self-punishments to understand how God "work"...
Illness, health problems, accidents, dead, problems, etc, happen because we are not in the paradise anymore... we are humans an are imperfect and make mistakes... God's help, justice are shown in the way we feel under this bad times and how our friends and family react...
Example: You are dealing with health issues, but precisely because God is with you, and you have been good, you are having LOTS of support and you are feeling in peace.... THAT is God help....
Im bad explaining, but I hope I made sense this time
We all be thinking about you tomorrow, please write us as soon as you can.
P.S Im sure God doesnt care where you pray... and even when we dont pray, he knows and reads our hearts, so dont worry if you havent been to church