Hi. I'm in a similar place as pretty much bed ridden. I guess for me I use my support and allow myself to vent to them,cry,and ask for help. I have times when the pain comes on like someone shot me and I self talk saying the time will pass and focus on getting through that moment. Are you on pain meds? I'm on vicadin and though can feel the pain through it helps to lessen. Did your doc give you any treatment advice such as pain managment,meds like neurontin,pt? Sorry I'm not much help but your not alone ans I know for me when the pain is intense its hard to hold to hope but I look at the people on this board that were in our place that have gotten better. Take one day at a time or even one moment.