I used to drink lots in college and then on weekends post college. Since my accident, I have tried several times to drink but stopped after 2 drinks since I didnt feel good. It was more than just having a low tolerance.

It's frustrating because my wife says its all mental at this point and if I wanted to I could(she is desperate to say i am back to 100%). I know this isn't the case and while I'm thankful for the recovery I've made so far, some things will never be the same.

It's cubs opening day and everyone is out partying having a good time. Yeah it's all mostly an illusion, but it would be nice to go back to those care free days.

I am better off in the long run for not being able to drink. Perhaps my accident was a blessing in disguise and I would've ended up an alcoholic like my old man. Just gotta go with the flow.