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Join Date: Sep 2012
Location: Columbus
Posts: 304
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Join Date: Sep 2012
Location: Columbus
Posts: 304
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Thanks for the support!
It does help. I'm having a hard time knowing who to talk to about this. I went to my therapist today, and it was helpful, but then when I brought up going to couples therapy to my husband, he said he wouldn't be able to do it for at least two weeks because he's so busy. It's a complicated situation, but he really is busy, I just don't know how I'm going to live with these issues between us without addressing them. I feel like I'm falling apart. My husband has had bouts of depression in the last five years, and I feel like I've been the one to hold down the fort, but then with PCS, he was the one who had to hold the fort. Now, I don't know that either one of us can. It scares me. I do know that I can be as strong as I need to be for my daughter, but I don't know that I can be as strong as I need to be for my daughter AND my husband.
I haven't been on antidepressants for a while. I went back on them prior to being diagnosed with PCS because I thought maybe my feelings of lethargy had to do with being depressed. After my diagnosis, I really didn't feel like I needed the antidepressants, because what had been getting me down was not knowing what was wrong with me. Now I feel like maybe I should go back on them again. I can handle losing my job, I can handle my husband losing his job, but what I cannot handle is losing the feeling of security I've always had in my relationship with him. Never in our 10 years of marriage have I truly doubted his love for me, that it was as strong as my love for him. That is until now. He says he still loves me and he means it, but I'm just afraid he's falling out of love with me. How do I get him to understand how essential it is that we address these issues now, without pushing him too hard during this time of great stress and turmoil. I'm just afraid our problems are going to spiral out of control if we don't deal with them now.
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I have recovered my cognitive function, and I've overcome severe vertigo through sensory integration therapy. Wellbutrin has helped me escape depression. I have recently had a few stress-related migraines, as well as headaches stemming from eye strain. I'm also dealing with tinnitus, lack of stamina, extreme light sensitivity, and eye pain. Diagnosed with 9 different vision issues: convergence insufficiency, pursuit eye movement deficit, egocentric visual midline shift, photophobia, visual information processing delays, accommodative insufficiency, saccadic eye movement deficit, lack of coordination, and central peripheral visual integration deficit.
*First concussion: October 2010. I was pregnant and got rear ended. I associated my mild PCS symptoms with baby brain and blamed my light sensitivity on allergies and dry eyes.
*Second concussion: December 2011. I hit my head on a wooden beam, saw stars but did not lose consciousness, and I had very disturbing PCS symptoms but didn't go to the doctor.
*Third concussion: August 2012. I caused a car accident as a result of PCS symptoms. Thankfully no one was injured but me. My husband confronted me, and I finally sought help and took medical leave from work. My symptoms worsened, and I developed severe vertigo.
*Fourth concussion: November 2012. I was riding in a car with a friend and we were hit head on by a driver who lost control of her car. I didn't have a big increase in PCS symptoms.
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