Mia,

I have some of those problems at times too.

I just accept that if something is going to happen, its going to happen, and move on. I know that if I accepted the need for a drug, after talking it over with my Neurologist, I will take it, and see what happens.

If I get a side effect, and its tolerable - ok; if I get a paradox effect and its tolerable - ok; if either is not tolerable, Im on the phone, and we talk about it; and find a solution.

I made it clear up front with my Neurologist - since I did this when I was working in the field, I wish it so now as a patient, its called communication - he likes email communiques, so I like 24 hours turn around times - we have a good rapport.

He also knows I will be on the "net' double checking any new drug he talks about - and always researching what I can do about my problems.

He says he appreciates it, it keeps him up to date - "saves me some research" - since he does alot of expert witness testimonies, I feel Im a help for him lol.

Sending him lots of bibliographies and such. lol