I am so sorry that you feel this way! You are not a wimp. It takes a very strong person to deal with this disease! Sometimes I wish I could lay my hand on someone to let them get a small glimpse of the pain I am dealing with when they look at me crying. Don't get me wrong I wouldn't wish this on my worst enemy, however just a touch of the pain and then take it back.
I just got diagnosed and am wondering how I am going to handle this being only 36. Looking at how many things I am going to miss and am already missing. When I tell people what I have no one seems to have heard it. I just give them a link to go and read it for them selves now. My primary doctor had never even heard of it

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Again you are not a wimp, you are very strong!!!!!