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Originally Posted by featherbullet
After 2.5 years of living hell, at 29 years of age .. After maxing out on narcotics and taking as much lyrica as I can function on, all the right supplements ,
Rest, time, tests , Losing relationships, friendships,putting immense strain on my family , being denied disability , and being terribly broke ...
I am out of hope , faith, and a will to carry on
I got the diagnosis of peripheral neuropathy.. But with no known cause.
In the morning, my hands are numb.. All of my muscles hurt and burn when I stretch. Burning from neck to feet .. That is relentless. I have tried all the lotions and potions. I can't just sit at home with ice packs all over me forever.
I'm not even 30.. Single , no profession because I had to drop out of school..
There is no hope. I have up on prayer ages ago.
Nobody wants to be around a whiny , negative person who is never happy and always in 24/7 pain.
I'm done. I'm just done. No desire to torture myself any longer.
Has anyone else ever dealt with crippling depression because of this horrendous disease?
Everyone I see on here is older .. No offence .. But my best years were still to come.
I had to get this out. Thanks for listening.
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Hi featherbullet,
Bless you ,I know how you feel -exactly. Lifes just been stolen away from us!. Just something that has helped me a little so thought id message you is having a fast acting med to top up and for surges in pain (breakthrough or spikes). As well as oxycontin , i have oxynorm (its fast acting sister). I assume your oxy is slow release - i find that doesnt cover the pain sufficiently.
I also take lyrica.I also cant function if i take too much - its horrid stuff. Have you tried topiramate?
A cream im trying is suppose to ease nerve/itching pain etc... Its Capsaicin cream. Ill let you know how it goes( prescription only).
Oil of magnesuim - i spray on joints - cant really say if its helping but anything is worth a shot.
Also im now on methadone for pain . It has helped a little.
Stay strong. As we read on site things can stabilise and even get slightly more tolerable
God bless x