I'm so sorry for your loss Budgie...sorry for all of the family. WHY....??? it's something we all ask and continue to ask until we realize that in most cases, we'll never know why. Our son left no note....he was obviously depressed but to put a gun in his mouth??

I'm so glad DMAC told you about us...he's been so helpful to so many of us on the site. I just wish we didn't have this awful thing in common.

I have a library of books on suicide...many titles are stickied to the top of this forum. Carla Fine wrote an especially good one No Time To Say Goodbye. Why Suicide? by Eric Marcus is another helpful one.

Please stick around and talk to us...You aren't alone.