Perhaps it was an impulsive act with your Uncle...nothing that he had been planning..maybe he just reacted to the pain he was feeling. Many people who kill themselves don't want to die, they want their pain to end. ~sigh
I can't believe that they think about the devastation their loved ones will go through...if they had any idea of the lives that will be forever changed, they would not kill themselves.
This grief journey is such a long, complicated one...waves of anger, guilt, questions....acceptance is a long time coming.