<sigh>
I don't know where you are.
I don't know who your doctor is.
I would hold your doctor as suspect. This is just as dangerous as Michael Jackson using Propofol in his home, prescribed by his doctor, and look where his doctor is now.
This is a drug that should NOT be used as an outpatient medication.
Dormicom
Midazolam
Hope this helps.
Best wishes.