I am so very sorry. I lost my mother at a young age as well. And she too was young, really. She was 49. We were best friends. It took me a very long time to feel even ok. In retrospect, I wish I had gotten counseling right away. I did eventually and it did help. Just like the other person mentioned, if you are a spiritual person, try to remember that your mom can see you and is happy. You can talk to her. You wouldn't want her to be on this earth, sick and in pain. And she would want you to get emotional help if you need it, to feel better and when you are ready, to move forward in life and to be happy. This is hard, be sure to take extra good care of yourself. Be with people who genuinely love and care for you. Know that you can speak to your mom quietly in your mind/prayers. God Bless you.