Wow guys, thanks so much!!!

I do a lot of things at work (nonprofit) but most recently they've had me on grantwriting. Ultimately want to work in museum education, so it's great ground experience, but I am painfully slow now. Not used to being slow at things and one of my worst faults is impatience with the inability to keep up, so I'm having to fight back my own frustration as much as anything else. A good learning experience for sure, but graaah.

@Dfayesmom, yes I am definitely having weird vision symptoms. The longer the line and bigger the paragraph, the more words blur into each other. Have my annual vision appt coming up soon and will definitely ask them for a reference! Have also lost most of my ability to edit since scanning is so hard.

I finally got back into reading, and honestly the best things I've found are books that I can laugh with friends about-- and that don't have to make any kind of sense to begin with. Reading the Mabinogion right now and it's hilarious, uses good vocabulary, and like most Celtic mythology, often makes no sense whatever. Also playing the Inklings' Irene Iddesleigh game (who can read the longest aloud without laughing) with my friends. Nerds ftw.

(Can't post links yet, so to digress: Amanda Kittrick Ros was renowned by Mark Twain, Aldous Huxley, and the Inklings-- Tolkien, Lewis, etc-- as the world's worst novelist, and her works are unintentionally incredibly hilarious. For instance:
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Things also look like completely different things at first, both in pictures and in words-- so for instance I'll see something like "great" and instantly read it as "Geoffrey" and then be like wait what??

Vitaminswise, have been taking a daily multi and have been trying to work with omega-3s-- but the latter upsets my stomach really badly. Heard krill oil is better than fish oil, but haven't been able to find any pure (and can't afford a whole lot of supplements :/ )

I'm completely out of sick and vacay time and lost an entire paycheck to unpaid sick leave, so unfortunately I don't have a lot of options as to therapies at this point. I tend to work very long days, so I've had trouble getting my life back in other ways-- did kung fu/tai chi briefly before my accident, and was forbidden by my neuro (contact sports.) Emailed my sifu to see if i could come back and just do forms with no sparring. It's my sanctuary, and I really, really hope I can go back soon. Any therapies I can diy are what I'll need to be looking at right now; barely even have time for my annual appointments.

The hope thread at the top is super helpful-- thanks guys! It's like an "It Gets Better" campaign for mTBI and TBI :3

I've been keeping up with the studies and frankly quite annoyed that we didn't do these 30 years ago. So many came out in March that would have been super useful to know in January! grouse grouse, gripe gripe, say n'more

Oh also, has anybody else been getting The Look with people you encounter? The one that is like simultaneously "you are a problem but I am too polite to say anything" and "wow, you're so stupid" and "I'm not sure if you really mean this or if you're making it up, you can do this, so why can't you do that?" It's been one of the most discouraging parts of recovery.


Oh, a discovery of my own! I joined *edit* a few months ago as a beta, and that has really helped. It's essentially structured CBT/positive thinking exercises in a social media setting and a super sweet community. I still have a few invites left if anybody wants one.