This is a lovely post as I am also struggling to accept where I am (not where I was or fantasies of where I will be).
I just read a quote from Nietzsche that reminds me of this post, of looking for the small bright sides that may just add up to some grand meaning: "He who has a why to live for can bear with almost any how."
Bright sides: more time with self, solitude, family and the few friends that are true.
I am also baking and cooking as my "cognitive" challenge! I use to forget steps and ingredients until I read about one with pcs who checks off each step and ingredient as she cooks.

Now more things are yummy than icky (so says my 5 year old).