Justice,
It sounds like you experienced spiritual abuse along with a lot of other abuse. I am so sorry you had to go through this.
Columbiangirl,
Don't beat yourself up for needing someone. Sometimes we are just not strong enough to go it alone. You will get stronger. The thing is you must realize that you are important. You count and are worth taking care of. I will pray for you.
The main thing about God, according to my belief, is that is does not have a denomination. He is just God. He also has time for everyone. You don't have to worry about whether your need is less severe than someone else's.
Jesus came to earth to show us what God was like, then he took our punishment which took care of the sin problem. God just wants to love us. He doesn't want to hurt us. He wants what is best for us. What we need to do is learn to trust him and lean on Him........and also lean on each other.
Judy