Yeah, I am really about to give up on this. I feel so disppointed, I don't think it's going to work out and we're going to be stuck here. I talked to her today and she sounded like things were moving along, but she still hadn't heard from her boss. I don't think it's going to work out that we get in there. Been crying off and on today, just so down it's not even funny.

Why does life have to suck so much? Why can't we get a break and have this work out for us? I don't understand how they can be taking THIS LONG to decide on our application. I just hate my life right now. Hate all the stress and the pain I feel over this disappointing experience. It's such a shame that this couldn't work out.

But I don't see it working out. I see us stuck here and I hate it.