I live in Arizona.

I realize it is not my employers responsibility to take care of me. They have made that painfully obvious. Given the difficulties I have working again after 5 months of STD, I am going to persue LTD. I realize first I need to find the right sort of doctor and a Lawyer. I could use assistance there. I've looked in the past, but never really persued it.

I am not interested in persuing WC, as I am told, since I was denied for it, I would need to take them to court and it could take upto a year. And many doctors don't see people on WC. It seems more trouble than it's worth.

I do see a therapist at this time, and I agree I need unbiased tests, not only to address my issues, but also to see the rate of improvement or decline.

As far as caffine, it is hard for me to drink water as I don't like the taste of it. I know I can get get Mio as a substitute, but I rather just train myself to drink water. I am working on this right now, but I doubt at this time I can completely give up on caffine.

With smoking, you are making an assumption that I am a regular smoker. I am not. I probably have one nicotine product, whether a cigar, ciggertte, or hooka once a month. Though sometimes I go two months without it. So your recommendation does not apply to me.

Perhaps reducing both will save me money, but it will also reduce my good feeling and those are few and far between these days. I will simply leave it as, I am working on the issue.

I have discussed my viewpoint on Vitamins and won't address it again, but thank you for your advice.

You do say how to avoid MSG, but your suggestion is not feasible. Especially on a tight budget, food is food. So if it has MSG, at least I have food to eat. If I had money, I would buy foods to avoid that. It's really easier said than done.

I do want to report that I tried to go to a bday party last Saturday. The last social party I went to was 8 months ago and left within 45 minutes. On Saturday, I went to a party and left again within 45 minutes. Being around people over stimulated my mind. I kept hiding in the kitchen because it was quiet and dark. This has left me feeling down. It seems many people who get PCS already have loved ones in their life. I am alone, and I hate to think that I have this for the rest of my life because I cannot find companionship. Plus, anyone I do meet will potentially need to take care of me. Really hard to be motivated if I can't go to a party or even work and give up on the idea of finding love/companionship.