I am glad you came here to vent. Most of us have those times that we just have to cut loose when things are hard. I do it too. Know that we will care about you here on Neuro Talk. I am sorry you are having such troubles at a young age. I know from experience how bad the finacial stuff can get you down. I hope that you get some kind of benefits, some kind of help. I live with a housemate, as I couldn't make it on my own either. Sure wish things could get better for you. ginnie