"I know that I cannot continue on with him...but I am so lonely that I find myself running to him even though I know its not good for me"

If that's not a line from a good ol country song - sell it!

Amy..venting is 100% fine, hope my gesture gave ya a smile.
Bring your MRI home on cd (as i will tomorrow) and trust me, time will fly researching what you're looking at. You'll enjoy it. I do!