Featherbullet, I joined this site specifically looking for people that were having the same issues that I was having - mine is lingering and worsening pain from an SCS implant back in Nov 30 last year. I did find a few people in my boat, but more importantly, I found a huge group of people that could relate to my pain, frustration, and depression. Knowing and talking to people that can relate to that part (despite the cause of their pain) was a huge help for me. Not a complete help, I admit, but a help. I will tell you something I've been keeping a secret until now. Last Sunday I called the suicide hotline because I snapped and the depression and loneliness took over. They helped me tremendously. Since then, because I really have no one here to turn to, I have learned to utilize the chat rooms. The depression and loneliness came back last night and I jumped into a chat room before doing anything else. I cannot express my thanks for the people that were there last night. Not only did I get hugs and support, they even had me in more back pain from laughing so hard before we were done. BTW, I will be 36 on Saturday - not too old, but probably old from your standpoint! I can still have a long way to go and another 50 or 60 years to live after I get through this bump in the road. Doc says mine will last about 5 years. It's a big, long bump, but it is just a bump none the less. I somehow hope my sharing something here helps make you feel just a little better, because a little better here and a little better there, really does add up! Good Luck, Best Wishes, and a big (HUG)