((((((Mark)))))),

I'm sorry you're having such a hard time.

Don't know if this is helpful at all, but, you left a word off -->> "yet".

They can't fix BP *YET*. They can't fix chronic pain *YET*.

"Fixing you" -- I doubt very much that you need 'fixing'. You probably just need a break from all the other stuff.

Mark, try to have some patience with yourself. And allow your wife to help you now. When you get your balance back, you can give back to her. That's a "good marriage" -- giving help when needed, but, also receiving help when offered.

I hope 'things' get easier for you. Hugs.

Barb