He's a jerk! and doesn't deserve to even be considered any which way from Sunday. Keep your head up. My husband is 7 yrs older than I am. I always thought I would have to take care of him cause he's a firefighter in the USAF. Well since we've been married he has had to deal with my health issues. We didn't even know what was wrong with my till a few months ago. If he can't stick it out through the good and bad he isn't mature enough. This gives you the chance to go out (don't sit at home moaning about it) and have fun. Yes we hurt, yes we get in foul moods because we hurt. You WILL find someone that is right for you. He will be an awesome loving guy that won't let you feel down in the dumps. Now I'm not sayin he gonna be perfect cause no one is. But he will love you for you pain and beauty in all.