Hi Suzie (my moms name ) :-)
I have ocd as well, so I can't use public pools because I find them akin to large toilets or bathtubs. :/

I'm sorry that you had the misfortune of becoming ill after taking strides towards a healthier lifestyle. Life can be unfair and bad things happen to good people

I've tried over 10 anti depressants since my teens and none have worked well enough for me to continue.
Things are harder when you are predisposed or develop depression with the neuropathy. Its an uphill battle it seems.
I'm grateful for this support forum. Its a gift.
Thanks for your comment and support.