Hi palomine

Sorry you feel you are being misunderstood here....it must be very hard to try to cope with what you are dealing with, especially when the meds make you feel bad. It may really be worth going into therapy though to help you deal with things.

I just wanted to clarify that this is the NeuroTalk section, dealing primarily with neurological health, rather than mental health, and so other members here may not be as aware of disabling mental health conditions as they would be on our main forums at PsychCentral, where the focus is primarily mental health. You will find much understanding and support there, as well as possible advice in finding the kind of treatment that would be best suited to your situation.

Here's the link (you will need to register a separate account there)
http://forums.psychcentral.com/