So here is the latest, we found out that if we get married we can put me on his insurance and i will be enrolled 30 days later. Thats great, i dont see how else im going to get some decent health care. But this is not how i wanted to do this. We were suppose to get married next fall and have a small celebration. Im 43 and this is not my first marriage. I cant help but feel like a burden to him. He is so good and compassionate to my pain. But there are days i feel so bad that he even has to deal with me and my health problems. Do any other women feel like this? Or maybe even men?